I’ve been knitting a lot lately. There’s some projects on my Ravelry page that I’ve updated and enjoyed (except one!) doing – but over the last week or so, I’ve started about 10 different projects and ripped them all out.

I’ve joined the Ravelympics with one project – a sweater I’ve been dying to knit up for my husband. I’ve never knit a sweater before, so I figured this was a good challenge to test myself with. I’ve already got everything for it, and I actually started it twice – but again, I’ve ripped it out every time.

I think part of my issue is yarn. The other part is something else that I’m not sure what I can do about.

I have a huge list of projects I really want to tackle. My library has almost 30 PDF files of stuff I want to do (and it’s growing), and I can’t stop browsing the patterns… well anywhere I go to find patterns. I have a stash that I built quickly, when I first began knitting in October. I didn’t know a damn thing about squat, so I just went to Michael’s and loaded up on stuff I could practice with. In the few short months I’ve been knitting, I’ve learned quite a bit: about how I progress, what I do, what holds my interest, and what to knit with. And what I think is really holding me up is my stash – I have a TON of acrylics (in colors I don’t particularly like) and I have a huge wad of cotton. I have a little bit of nice yarn that I’m not quite sure what to do with, and I have a small stash of Fisherman’s Wool that I really like to knit with, but I can’t figure out what to knit with it.

My other issue is designs. I have a TON of knitting pattern designs in my head, but I’m not familiar enough with the process to know what to do with them. If it were a perfect knitting world for me, I could find someone who loves to make patterns but has a lack of design ideas, and hook up with them. I see all sorts of patterns that I almost love – if it just weren’t for this or that thing – but I don’t know how to change it, nor do I know how to come up with something that works on my own (yet).

I need to somehow bust my stash. I need to get rid of all of this crap I started, and get some goodies. I need to start projects that I really want to work on, but haven’t because I’m surrounded by crap that I don’t know what to do with. I’m not a “hoarder”, so I feel like I have to get rid of what I’ve already got before I can go out and buy more stuff.

So that’s where I am right now. I love knitting, but I’m just not feelin’ it right now. I feel like I need to figure something out before I burn out on being stuck.