So after about a week of debating on the whole issue of quitting, I’ve come to a decision.

I have to say, I’m not one for meditation (although I should – Lord knows it keeps me calm when I do, and with a 15-year-old girl in the house this summer, I need to remain calm, lest I obliterate her), but I did have long conversations with my husband and lots of time to think on it.

I will not be quitting.

I can’t. I love my job too much. I would be lost if I quit. Sure, it would be nice for a while – doing nothing but whatever I wanted to do at all times – but the novelty would wear off, and I would miss it too much. I’m the type of person that must be doing something. If I don’t, I go insane.

So knowing that I will not quit my job then led me to the reasons as to why I was even thinking about doing it. The answer was my lack of time. I have no time to do the other parts of my life that I enjoy. (Or the parts that I don’t, but still need to do… like dishes, and laundry…) THIS is what I need to tackle. My lack of time. And my lack of time stems from my lack of organization, my lack of focus, and my lack of spine (i.e. I can’t seem to say “no,” even when I’m overwhelmed – even when I know if I say “yes” everyone will suffer because I’m spread too thin).

So now I have a goal. I know I don’t want to quit. Now I have to focus on the other three aspects to make that goal a success. My spine, my organization, and my focus. Holy crap – it’s the triad: Body, Mind and Soul. They all three go hand-in-hand, and now I have to find that balance.

It’s a start!