I’ve stopped and started my diet and exercise regimen several times in the past, to no avail. I’ve yo-yo’ed on the same 20 pounds for the last 2 years. Lose it, gain it, lose it, gain it. I’m so tried of it.

For some reason, this morning, I woke up and it’s like someone scrubbed my brain. I’m tired of this crap. I’m tired of this weight hanging on me, and I’m tired of coming up with excuses for putting off what needs to be done to get rid of it.

Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve finally found an exercise I really enjoy doing – maybe that’s the key. I don’t know. (for the record, it’s this. I haven’t enjoyed running/walking so much since I was in track in high school.) But last night, I was reminded that we were supposed to go to Disney this past summer, and stuff got messed up so we couldn’t. But we plan on going next summer. And I’m tired of taking vacations in places where I can hide my rolls (which I have named “Peter, Paul and Mary”). Florida, in the summer, is NOT a place to be wearing jeans and oversized tees in dark colors. I’m tired of skipping the Superman ride at Six Flags because I’m afraid they won’t let me on it (or rather, they’ll let me on it, then kick me off so I can stand on the other side as the rid pulls away with a gazillion strangers standing on the other side and judging me. I’ve seen it happen.)

I’m tired of being judged, period.

I’m done.

I don’t know WHAT kicked in – perhaps it’s the realization that truly, it’s not that hard to do. The really difficult part is DOING IT. I don’t need a fancy-schmancy diet plan, or weekly weigh-ins. I just need a little determination. I quit smoking, cold turkey. I should EASILY be able to do this.

I already know that my diet is fine. I’ve been logging what I eat for a couple of years now. The foods I eat are already healthy – so that’s not a problem. But I need to do better on the portion control, and if I pre-make snacks, then I won’t eat the quick stuff.

But what I do plan on changing – and it’s simple, really:

1. Drink more water. I do really well with this when I already have my daily stock of water in the fridge, ready to go. For some reason, if it’s not, I don’t drink water.
2. Smaller portions.
3. Pre-make snacks (that my kids won’t eat before I get to. And they will. I need to hide them.)
4. The BIG one: work out. This, I already do, but intermittently. I need to get on a schedule. The one I think will work is my Lolo workout. Do it every day. Every other day, do it twice a day. on non-double days, join my husband in the Bowflex workout he does.
5. Get more sleep. Since the time change, this has actually not been an issue!

#4 is the tough one. But I know it’s what will make this work. So no more excuses. it’s an hour – maybe two – out of my day. That’s NOT that much time, and I can spare it. I need to stop thinking of reasons why I can’t. Because there’s NO REASON why I can’t. I may not want to, but it’ll do me good.

Like smoking, the first three days are the hardest. If I can make it through the first three days, I should be able to make it through the following 25.

And 28 days makes a habit.

Wish me luck!